Hi my names Jodie an am 27 from wirral near liverpool welcome to my site. In october 9th 2005 i gave birth to my sleeping twins Amiee and Hayley , i was 27.5 gest. Amiee at 20.53 weighed 1lb 11oz and Hayley 21.03 1lb 5.5oz.My beautiful angels.I had a condition called Twin To Twin Transfussion Syndrome TTTS for short, it occurs in identical pregancies.I didnt find out i woz pregnant til i woz 4 months, i hadnt put any weight on , no morning sickness, nothin, but my periods where a bit irregular, but i blamed that on the pill that i had recently started.Then when i told the doctor she suggested i had a pregnancy test. And yep i woz pregnant, i thought maybe 5 weeks gone. when i had my 1st scan i woz hit by a double whammy the 1st one being 21 weeks gone then being told it woz twins. I couldnt belive it wen i saw the two of them on the scan, cuddled up 2gether sucking there thumbs an blowin bubbles.My dream of being a mummy was fianlly coming true. I was on cloud nine, am my partner was callin himself super sperm! Then our world came crashing down with my next scan, an from then on it woz bad news afta bad news. I was told about TTTS an i was clueless an a little scared, but i thought it wont happen to us, it'll happen to someone else, but we were that someone else.I had servere TTTS, i had to under go numerous amnio drainages, where the insert a think needle into my tummy an draw out the excess water, all 3ltrs of it, no wonder i woz really uncomfortable an in pain all the time, that took bout 2 hours to do, then i had 2 have steriod injections jus incase i went into prem labour. After that there woz still no improvement so i got reffered to birmingham womens hospital, where i had to have an operation to lazer the placenta, all went well an docs all seemed happy, an i woz realived they where still alive and kicking because the surgery came with its dangers, we could of lost one or even two of them there an then. Then afta a day or so the movements slowed down and i went bak to my local hospital, she then reffered me again to bham. Where the worst woz yet to come. The proffesor done a scan, he woz pretty quite an i cudnt really see the monitor. The nurse then took me an my Billy to this waiting room, an i knew then it was bad news, i cud jus tell by looking at the room, i woz scared to enter it, my babies where fighters they where gona survive , i didnt want some doctor to take my dreams away. After an agonising wait for wot seemed hours the proffesor came in the room with the matron, he told us both babies where seriously strugglin, they had both suffered a stroke, which incured servere brain damage, cerabal palsy and heart failure.He told us that there woz a 99% chance they wouldnt survive the pregnancy and if they did they wouldnt have a long time here on earth. After hours of disscuions with my partner we decided with the proffesor to terminate the pregnancy. It woz one of the most hardest dessions we will ever have to make, but we knew we made the right choice.The termination woz mentally an physically painfull and it woz heart breakin to see our babies heart beats stop.They had suffered enough, let them rest in peace.They gave me a tablet to induce me then 2 days later sunday october the 9th our daughters came in to the world, we kissed an cuddled them for hours. Took pictures of them 2gether in the moses basket holdin each others hand.The priest came soon after to bless them.The following day i was released from hospital, i shud of been holding my babies, but insted i carried an empty heart. A part of me died the day my girls became angels.I jus hope our little one forgive us for our dession. I love you little Angels xxx |